I don't want to work

I studied computer engineering. And for us geeks, there’s only one place to be in the world if you want to be called “the cool kid” instead of “the nerd”. And that’s San Francisco. The Silicon Valley. The Mecca of all tech stuff. I managed to get an internship there. Today, I still think that it was the best internship I could have gotten, it was exactly what I wanted at that period of my life: a stimulating job, a well-known startup, a perfect city.

And I really liked it. The work itself was challenging, the team was incredible, and San Francisco was crazy. I could have settled down for a while.

BUT. That was what my brain was telling me. You’ve got a perfect job, you’ve got nice friends, you are doing plenty of activities in your free time: you should like your life, you should be happy, you should settle down. And that was also what I told people around me, well, I mean, people with whom I didn’t want to go deep into the conversation.

Me, my heart, my deeper side, was telling me something else. Technically speaking, no, it was telling me anything. It just didn’t feel completely fulfilled, completely balanced, completely “one”.

I repeat, that life in SF was good, it was really good.

But I was looking for something great.

Passions first.

For me, that life in San Francisco was still a “job” life. Every day I’d wake up in the morning to go to work, every day I’d arrive at work at 9am, every evening I’d leave work at 6pm. Work, work, work.

I didn’t want to work.

Now don’t get me wrong. It doesn’t mean I’m lazy. It’s 1:37am here in Guatemala and I’m still working on this blog post. The truth is, I don’t consider it as work, that’s why I don’t care how much I “work” on it.

I just want to ask yourself: are you considering your job as a “job”? Do you get up every morning telling yourself “I should get prepared for work”?

You can like your job. I liked my job. But I don’t want you to like your job. I want you to love it so much that you stop calling it “job” anymore. I want you to wake up in the morning hurrying yourself to finish your coffee, impatient to continue the stuff you were doing the night before.

“Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.” –Confucius

That’s passion. That’s not work.

Find your passion, and try to make money from it.

But how do I do that?

That should be the way things are done, no? Find your passion, and try to make money from it.

But then, what’s my passion? Even me, personally, I don’t think I found something I love so much I could transform it into work. I have hobbies, for example computer stuff, but it turned out I didn’t want to make it a job.

One of my university professors once said: “There’s passion, and there’s talent. Follow your passion. And if you don’t know what your passion is, follow your talent.”

I think that it’s the case with a lot of us. We have several hobbies, at least one of them we’ve transformed into skills, via our studies. And now we are having a job using these skills. We like that job, our life is going good, but we don’t love that job to the point of calling it passion instead of job.

That’s the description of me in San Francisco.

So back to the starting point then. A good life, a good job. But as I said, I was looking for something great. How do I achieve that?

Unfortunately, and sorry to disappoint you, I don’t have the answer.

My personal answer to this lack of answer was to travel. Because I knew that I hadn’t found my passion-job, I just didn’t want to settle.

And traveling definitely did help me understand things. So my best suggestion for you would be to travel. For a rather long period of time, say, at least a couple of months. That’ll certainly give you some new ideas.

Of course, every one can’t or don’t want to travel for so long. My second best suggestion is, for those who don’t think their job as a passion, is not to let your job be so important in your life. One of the most common regrets people have in the end of their lives is “I wish I hadn’t worked so hard.” Make time for your other hobbies, maybe you’ll discover your passion like this. Don’t let your work command your life. And that’ll be the main topic of my next article.

Comment down here if you too don’t want to work!